a turning point

this weekend made me realize that yet again, i have morphed into the a different version of myself without noticing. unfortunately, i feel like i went back in time to someone i just couldn't ever quite get a handle on. it's kind of annoying. i feel an extreme lack of self-control, at least as far as doing things that might annoy people are concerned. i am so stuck right now, IN BETWEEN everything. i'm not really sure if i fit into anything or onto anything or around anything. just in between things. this wouldn't be a bad thing, at least if it weren't for the fact that i feel like i've been in between for the last five years. i know i can't leap yet, but at least i know i'm getting closer.