what i wanted to say....

9.18.2005

no more mopey shit...

... at least for tonight.

i've been "joking" a lot lately about becoming a rock star. it's not really a joke, though. i know i'm good enough. and i know my songs are doing it for people. i've never gotten a bad reaction yet. i've gotten good press. you know how some people will always float, no matter how deep the water gets? i've been blessed to be one of those people most of the time. and while i may never reach the status of grammy-winning recording artist, i know i've got a future in music.

and that, for the record, is extremely comforting.

9.07.2005

still?

i'm finding that i'm still angry at the world. angrier, in fact. i wake up in the morning and look out and see yesterday shifted forward 24 hours. the time is passing, but nothing's changing. my luck has taken a turn for the worse and it's taken my good nature with it.

SIGH. i do a lot of that here, don't i?